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This keyboard is as basic as I am and that’s why I like it so much

Specs:

  • Zuoya GMK87 Keyboard Kit
  • Outemu Silent Peach Switches
  • idk whatever cheap WOB keycaps I could find on AliExpress
A tenkeyless mechanical keyboard (specifically the Zuoya GMK87) on a table, featuring a white case, white on black keycaps, and on the right side, a small screen and a volume knob.

So I went to a restaurant today with my family and I got a Coke Zero bottle. I looked at the ingredients out of boredom and I noticed that the last ingredient in the ingredients label was Stevia Extract, which I had never seen in a Coke Zero before

A Coca-Cola Zero Sugar bottle turned to show the ingredients label which reads: Carbonated Water, Caramel Color, Phosphoric Acid, Aspartame, Potassium Benzoate (to protect flavor), Natural Falvors, Potassium Citrate, Acesulfate Potassium, Caffeine, Stevia Extract. Phenylketonurics: Contains Phenylalanine. Caffeine Content: 57mg/20 fl oz

After we went to the restaurant, we stopped at a local Walmart so someone could make a return, and I was also invited to go in and get something for myself too, so I took that as an opportunity to check the ingredients of the Coke Zero products there as well

  • The regular Coke Zero was the same one I got in the restaurant, in the exact same order too
  • The Coke Zero Orange Cream had Acesulfate Potassium ahead of Aspartame and also decided to use Sucralose too, which is lower than the other two. I also noticed it uses Sodium Citrate instead of Potassium Citrate
  • The Coke Zero Cherry looks like it’s the same as regular Coke Zero but the Potassium Citrate and Acesulfate Potassium switched places
  • And because it’s the same company I checked out Sprite Zero label too, and while the sweeteners usually were high up for all the Coke drinks, both the Aspartame and Acesulfate Potassium were the bottom two ingredients
  • Only regular Coke Zero had stevia by the way, none of the other ones had it

Note to Self: When doing stuff bad, make it a complete bad rather than a partial bad

I had a dream I went to Sam’s Club and they were selling some burger beef balls. They were near a really big and wide meat section, and the meat section was really big and was kind of like a deli section actually, it had a lot of somewhat shiny metal, it might be like the one from the Sam’s Club I go to actually, but yeah the beef ball section was an aisle away from that if you turn around. There were free samples of burgers made with the meat, and they were smashburgers of course. The balls themselves also seemed to be composed of like freshly ground beef that’s shaped into the ball carefully which showed signs of still looking like it was recently ground beef, the beef that came in a rectangular container rather than a roll that cookie dough comes in. They were also way bigger than any bigger I had ever seen. Anyway I tried a sample which was a small container filled with tiny burger bun, very green lettuce, tomato, and burger, and I thought that was simply the greatest burger I had ever tried. I also saw after this that apparently this burger came from a struggling burger company that Sam’s Club and made their own Member’s Mark brand (but the branding was missing throughout, the balls were just sold in the beef balls out in the counter and you just grabbed them)

What’s interesting is I have dreamt about Sam’s Club having these beef balls before, and the store even looked the same too

OH MY GOD I JUST REALIZED!!!!!

SUFFICE = SUFFIX

PREFACE = PREFIX

Yes I did only now realize this at 22 years old

Sometimes (like right now) I randomly remember that in elementary school I participated in a spelling bee and I was asked to spell “staple” and I got it right but the judge said I was wrong. I sat down and got off the stage, confused because I was sure I was right, and minutes later they realized I actually did spell it right. I recall the judge thinking the spelling was “S-T-A-P-E-L” before they were corrected

Forgot a lot about a dream but here’s what I remember

I saw a bunch of cats through the window to my backyard

I want to go see them up close so I try to go through the few doors to get to the backyard

I open one door and see the back of a big brown bear

I close the door before it notices me

I get to my room and call 911, and I remember being really nervous, saying “Oh my god there’s a bear, a brown bear, a grizzly bear”

I’ve thought this a couple of times but I don’t think I’ve ever said it out loud

I think that if I actually was an anthropomorphic cat like I always imagine myself to be, I would most likely want to be a photographer rather than an illustrator (like I could be either)

I draw myself in usually pretty basic and simple settings because that’s the most likely ones I’d find myself in in-person, wherever I am right now

Basically if I were cat irl, I would just be taking many photos of myself because I wanna appreciate myself in that form

Had a dream where I was in my backyard at night when I got stung in the wrist by a scorpion that had the color scheme of a crab. I remember being in that backyard and narrowly avoiding it previously but I don’t have much details about it. I was inside soon enough, annoyed at the sting, and I noticed the inside of the house had the lighting of the event of a hurricane. The power’s out, and only a lamp is providing light. I told my brother about the sting when I looked down and noticed my right arm was littered with scratches and even my skin was falling off. I was just confused more than panicked about the effects of the scorpion/crab thing but that still made me yell at him to take me to a doctor. He agrees and we get in a car. We make a few expected turns, but I feel us going left instead of a usual right and I ask him why we aren’t going to the doctor I expected us to. I do not remember his response. We end up stopping at a Target because my brother told me they have doctors there. The Target was way closer than any Targets that exist while I’m awake. I walk in and step in line for making an appointment at the doctor’s section and ai remember the line being really long. My dad then shows up, and he greets me, saying we haven’t seen each other in a while. I show him my right arm, which just has a whole area near my wrist that is missing skin, and he’s just shocked with fascination. I set my appointment and get my time in a huge envelope, Target themed and with other details as well. I sit down next to my brother in the waiting room and I am worried that it estimates five hours for my appointment to come up but he tells me that it’s gonna be less time than I think. I remember just looking up and seeing other people who had an appointment just walking around a comically huge aisle in the store. I also remember while waiting, I was watching a video of the Block Wars Minecraft event that recently took place (NOTE: Season 12) and seeing a contestant mention being glad that the furries placed low, and I remember it cutting to a clip SonicFox, who I am not even sure was part of the actual event, being struck by lighting in Minecraft while it showed them in dead last in the leaderboard of all the contestants. I unfortunately woke up before everything else continued.

I had a dream that I was playing a video game where every few bosses at the end of the level I had to fight Joker, and the gimmick of the fight is that you have to resize yourself to the right size in order to jump on him and deal damage to him. Joker would laugh at you and mock you for your size, acting like you can’t match it. The only battlefield I remember from various fights was a dimly lit alley, very orange light with brick walls

NOTE: I do not remember what kind of ‘Joker’ I was dreaming of. The two I have in mind (Persona and Batman) don’t feel like what I was dreaming of and that makes wonder if Joker is even an accurate recollection of the dream.

I was thinking and I just realized I used up all my overachieving workaholic energy in my middle school years. I am now falling behind in everything else today to make up for it and keep lofe

NOTE AS I ADD THIS ENTRY: This is exactly how I wrote this into my notebook. I do not remember how I wanted to finish that sentence.

Rule 6: Don’t underestimate the power of cleaning your glasses and shaving, it can do a lot for you.

UPDATE 2025-10:29: As of February 2025 I got laser eye surgery and don’t need glasses. And as I look back at this I wonder what only the shaving will do for me now. I think it might still do a good amount

I feel like my chances of being able to have good relations with someone go way down if they have an active Letterboxd account. That sort of issue is all on me, honestly, but I think that is how it is with me

Regularly unlearning things I believe is a lot like deleting my search history, I just realized. Hopefully the disappearance of the thoughts is more real and working in my case, that is why I do it so much recently, after all

The only thing I remember from my dream last night (I think it’s the only thing that happened in the dream anyway) is I was sitting in the dining table with my brother and on his plate was a fuckton of fries. He had cooked them all himself, and he had convinced himself that even though most of them looked quite normal to me, a lot of them were actually burnt and wouldn’t be good to eat. I grabbed a fry and said this one not only looked fine, but in fact was beautiful but he responded, “No it is not!”

Liquidation.

That is the word that comes to mind right now. I don’t know what it means though, or if it even has anything to do with me

I had a dream where I was in Minecraft and someone forced me to complete a course, and it was a race against someone that had already started. There was proximity voice chat so I could hear voice. In this map you had to go up and up and up, and you would lose so much progress if you fell. I was given wooden planks to help me make jumps and I used them a lot to make sure I was safely getting through the course. One strange thing I witnessed as I jumped through the course was that there was a big block that I passed that had a window, and I saw someone crying while they broke blocks. I assumed this was opponent but I could not be sure. I was breezing through this course thinking I was gonna make it and be free to go until I notice that the very end of the course requires me to have a perfect amount of blocks to stack on each other in order to finish. I did not have anywhere close to enough blocks, and I could not break any other blocks besides the ones I placed down. I had to go all the way to the start of the extremely long course and break all blocks that were not necessary, and I understood completely why that other person was crying. I was doing what they had to do and it was terrible

My new hobby is being really into characters from media while never having consumed the media they are from (and usually not planning on doing so either)

Here is my current list of characters I am doing this with off the top of my head, so understand it is not complete:

  • Ralsei (Deltarune)
  • Sybil (Pseudoregalia)
  • Mae Borowski, Bea Santello (Night in the Woods)
  • That goober from Indigo Park
  • Niko (OneShot)
  • Fang (Goodbye Volcano High)
  • Aak (Arknights)

If my interest in these characters while not knowing anything about the source media bother you at all, I am sorry. I mean, love the fanart I have seen of them! I have just… not consumed the media they are from.

UPDATE 2024-05-28 01:55 PM: I just remembered one important addition and it is: Anything and everything Pokemon-related (I have not played anything Pokemon)